Why I Was Born

MY PAST, CURRENT & FUTURE

What does it mean to surrender it all to God? I never fully understood this until I finally surrendered it all to him over the last few years. When someone surrenders to God, it is to be all in it for him fully, to surrender EVERYTHING. We live to please ourselves every day by the wants we desire in life. We wake up, work, or run our business and live out every day working towards the things we want; a job, house, car, wife, husband, kids, and live happily ever after. We grow up brainwashed to live a certain way in society. Then when something goes wrong, we think the world is about to end. We cry out to GOD to ask, ?Why did this happen?? You lose a job. You lose a house. You lose a loved one; these are some of the things that happen in life. When we do what we want to do in life, and it goes right, we are good. When it goes wrong, this is when we run and ask God why. When we surrender all to God, it means waking up and going to bed with him and starting the next day all over again with him; our way of living is only to please God. Peace and joy he gives us in our daily life.

 

 

The seed was planted.

 

The seed of the word of God was planted in our family one way or another. I do not know the whole history, but I know at one time we were not living a full Godly life. I can only go back to my great-grandmother, but I know God always had his hand over our family. My nana was a God-fearing woman, and from what my mom told me, my nana shared the word of God to my grandmother; however, my grandmother never raised my mother and my uncle in church nor shared the word of God when they were young. My mother attended Catholic school, but that did not even get practiced at home. My grandmother, at some point in her life, surrendered all to God and became born again. My mother was living her life of the world, and when she had my brother and me, we had no education of the bible, nor did we go to church. When my brother almost lost his life due to an asthma attack, my mother surrendered to God and became a born-again Christian. There is power in prayer, and it only takes someone to plant the seed and begin to water it. I was leaving elementary school when my mother started to go to church. From then on, we were in bible study, attending revivals, and spending long days and nights in church. I enjoyed church, but I thought it was overkill going to revivals and coming home so late that we were too tired to go to school. As I got older, I wanted to party with my friends and do all the things I could not do being a Christian. We couldn?t listen or dance to worldly music, I couldn?t have a boyfriend or hang out as much as my friends did, etc. At that time, my mother was a babe in Christ and was finding her way in living this new Christian life, so we had to go with her flow.

 

Mark 4: 26 ? 29 And He said, ?The kingdom of God is as if a man should [a]scatter seed on the ground, and should sleep by night and rise by day, and the seed should sprout and grow, he himself does not know how. For the earth yields crops by itself: first the blade, then the head, after that the full grain in the head. But when the grain ripens, immediately he puts in the sickle because the harvest has come.?

 

 

I called on him when I needed him.

 

As a young woman growing up, I wanted what most young ladies wanted. I wanted to have fun and go out with my friends, have a boyfriend, and just live the life of no one telling you what to do or how to do it. I had no time to sit and read the bible like I used to with my mom or pray as much as we did when we were younger. All the things my mom did with us were preparing us for the world. All the things that were going to hit us like a ton of bricks. Or the different spirits we had to keep prayed up so they would not touch us. I knew how to run to Jesus when I needed him. Every time something happened that did not go as planned, I would cry to Jesus. If I got my heartbroken, I would cry to Jesus. If I lost a job or did not get the job I wanted, I called to Jesus. If it were something I wanted badly, I would cry and ask Jesus, ?If you do this, I promise...? Does this sound like something you do? I ran or cried to Jesus a lot, which we should do in any BAD or GOOD situation, but I was practicing without knowing it (wink and smile). The point I am making is that I wanted control over the way I wanted my life to be. I wanted everything to go my way. I wanted the boy that broke my heart and prayed to God to fix it. At that time, I knew this man was not for me, but I kept it going for YEARS. We continue to want things that are not good for us because we stay in a situation for too long and do not know what it is like to have better. 

Some of us have our breaking points, or we do not want to give up when there could be a good thing going. There were other things in my life that I continued to do on my own without seeking God's direction, but I continued to cry to him to fix things when they did not go my way. That was not the type of relationship God wants us to have with him. Sometimes God allows certain things to happen to get our attention. He certainly got my attention on more than one occasion.

 

I finally surrendered it all. 

 

Do you remember the seed that was planted? In Proverbs 22:6, ?Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old, he will not depart from it.? We all have strayed away from God and done our own thing. What we thought was not harmful but desirable in this temporary world was keeping us away from the one who gave his ONLY son to us. John 3:16, ?For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.? Every time I read this scripture, I get so emotional because I had better, I knew better, and I experienced better, but I allowed my flesh to tell me different because I made some choices in my life that I knew were not better. I went through highs and lows because I did not let my Father in. He was always there, no matter what I was going through or the choices I made. He stayed with me. I had my heart broken; I lost my first job; I lost one of my twins at the age of 19; I had many losses, but he was always there. All I had to do was give it all to him. Let me tell you how my God works. He is the one that created me, designed me, knows every inch of my body and every strand of hair on my head, so no matter what I have done in the past, it has been forgiven. He is the one that showed me that my son was okay and he was home with him when he died at 11 months. When I join my first study group from the book, 'What On Earth Am I Here For? The Purpose Driven Life, God reveal to me some things I had to go through to bring me where I am today. If you feel you lost your way, confused, and want to know your purpose, I highly recommend this book. I do recommend taking this journey with a small group of family members, friends, or members of your church. If you do choose to do it alone, invest in the guide as well. It has changed many people's lives.

 

I finally surrendered it all to him when he revealed that the man I spent years with had cheated on me when we were supposed to get married. But wait, there is more; I was at peace with it. There was no crying; there was no going back; there was nothing. When I surrendered, I surrendered it all to him. This was not the first time God had to reveal things to me about this relationship, I had just chosen to ignore it before, but this time God had prepared me for it. He said, ?I got you, daughter. You are worth more. You are the daughter to the King. Draw closer to me.? As I draw closer to my Father, he continues to open doors that I never imagined could be opened. 

I am committed to walking in my purpose and living my life for him. This is when God lead me to write my book when I finally started to embrace my season of singleness. I have a single ministry, who I am in partnership with and we host events, weekly prayer calls and continue to do the works to please God. If you need any prayer for anything, you are invited to join us on our weekly Friday, at 1 PM prayer. Please email us at eysos2018@gmail.com to send your prayers or for the number to call in to join us in prayer.

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Teekwa Scarborough 

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