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Why I Was Born

My Past, Current & Future




I am confused. What am I supposed to do? I tried it all and I can?t figure it out. Why can?t I get the answers I am seeking for? Ugh! You cry, you settle, you may think, I guess this is my life. God, is this it? Am I here to just be a mother? Am I not enough to have more? Excuse me, Lord, what is going on? 

 

We were made by God to image him in this world

 

I grew up in a Christian home but I really did not know the meaning of us imaging God fully. I was learning the bible and going to church because I had to. It was not by choice. I remember one day my brothers and I begged my father to let us stay home with him because we did not want to go to church for the entire day again. I used to say to myself, I will never do this to my kids. I will give them a choice. It is ironic how God gives us a choice to serve him, which leads to eternal life, or to serving the devil, which leads to destruction and death. I did not understand this at the time; I was just doing what I was told. I just thought if I was a good person and did good things, I would go to heaven. Boy, did I have a rude awakening! It is certainly more than that. It is certainly bigger than me. Although my mother was a baby in Christ, she was doing what she thought was right for herself and her family. She certainly wanted her family to be saved and to give our life to Jesus. I was kind of upset with my mom at the time, when she made me go to the altar to give my life to Jesus. What being ?saved? or ?born again? means is to have a spiritual rebirth; you are no longer under eternal condemnation, and you are a believer and become a part of the royal family of God. I know now she was doing it because she wanted me to grow up to be a god-fearing woman. She was planting the seeds because she was not always saved. She had been through challenging pitfalls in her lifetime and she knew that by planting the seeds in her children, that no matter what we would go through in life or stray away from, we would find our way back to Jesus. 

 

I found out my first purpose in life: I was born a female. In the beginning, God created man and woman in his image. In Genesis (MSG) 1: 27, ?God created human beings; he created them godlike, Reflecting God?s nature. He created them male and female?. You may be thinking, ?Ok, so I am a female, and?? We have been exploring why we were born through looking at the personality we developed, and the temperament we fall under. These play a part in discovering who we are, but now we must look at how we will use this purpose we were born for. During the process of me sharing my life experiences, I will be sharing how I figured out my purpose. You will see the journey, twists, turns, hurt, and disappointment that led me to know what my purpose is. I know for one I was born to serve God, to love, give, show compassion and allow my life to shine through others. I am to become more Christlike so that I can draw others to my father. Through me, he will show you that you have a purpose.

 

So, what is my purpose?

 

We are not on earth to just live a life and die. We are here, as the song says, to ?Shine A Light on Em?, by growing in Christ and being more Christlike. Have you ever met someone who told their story? It may have been someone who was raped, in an abusive relationship, or lost a child to death? You may have thought, ?why would Jesus allow them to go through this?? Think about someone that shares a story with the very thing you are going through, and how they have changed your life. For example, rape victims will have these common feelings: loss of control, fear, guilt, shame, self-blame, anger, isolation, difficulties getting back on track with their life, to name a few. God allows things to happen during events in our life to step into the purpose he has planned for us. I know it does not sound good, but he allows it to use you to save many other lives. We have many survivors who spend their lives helping others. For example, in the book of Esther, the divine purpose was to save her people. A nation! There were many events that happened in the book of Esther. It reminds us to pray, wait on God, be obedient, and that how he will never leave us. I found my purpose through reflecting on my life experiences and ASKING GOD repeatedly, ?what am I on earth for?? For some of us we know, and for others, it takes a very long time to find out. I always had one foot in and one foot out in my walk with Christ. Therefore, it took me years to find out. I had a baby at the age of 19, I lost a baby at the age of 20, I was in a relationship where I was cheated on, I was told I would not make it in my career because of my writing, I was told that I will never make as much money as my white counterpart in my career. I had another baby out of wedlock and settled to stay in a relationship that I was not 100% happy with, and decided to do it because I wanted my son to be in a home with two parents. I waited to get married and again I was cheated on. So, God, ?what am I on earth for?? I would cry and scream. What is it you want me to do? You talk to everyone else but me. I am a good person, I have done some things in my life that I am not proud of, but I loved, I supported, I cared, I give and give and give. Is something wrong with me? Just why?

 

If you are seeking answers, seek and you will find them in Christ Jesus. I kept knocking on the door until I got my answers.  



Here are the things I did to help me find answers, that you should also try:








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Teekwa Scarborough 

Business Christian Coach 

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